Why am I here? (Blogging, I mean)

So. Here I am. I'm no blogger and don't really think I have anything to say that other people would want to hear but I needed a place of my own as I am about to start a journey that I've started a hundred times...

Loosing weight and getting into shape.

Really? How many times have I said that? So why is this time different? Why does it matter now?

To be honest...I don't really know myself, however, I have some theories as to my new found motivation...

1. I'm tired.
2. I'm tired of being tired.
3. I hate every picture I end up end.
4. I hate what I see in the mirror.
5. Oh and I am going to be 30 in a couple of years and I swore to myself that my 30s were going to be better than my 20s.
6. Well, let's just say I could keep going...

But I do have some positive theories...

1. I have 2 years before I turn 30 and my 30s will be my best years
2. I am almost done with my Master's and then I'm done with school
3. I'm about to get my Elliptigo and I can't wait!
4. I want to be more for my husband who has given me everything.
5. And then there's the most important reason of all...Alyssa (Squeaky McGee) Brown!

So needless to say there is an endless list of why the time is now. However, today at work was the last push. I am moving to the 8am shift at work and I was talking about it with a co-worker. She is one of the sweetest people there and I know she meant no harm by it but when I mentioned that I was planning on getting some exercise in before work now, she said "I've noticed your weight wasn't the same from when I started here." The weird part...I didn't get upset, embarrassed, or anything. Because it was an honest comment made by an honest person who was truly only making an observation that was accurate. It didn't hurt my feelings like I expected it to. 

So I decided that I needed a place to get my thoughts out. A place to talk out my feelings because I tend to see them clearer when I rationally think about them. A place where I can track and look back at what I've done (or haven't done). A place that would help keep me accountable. A place where my motivations can be permanent and not just a flash in the dark.